Unbearable Symptoms
Lately my allergy symptoms have become unbearable. Although I take allergy medication 24 hours a day for 365 days out of the year I can no longer manage my allergies. My eyes are constantly running and on fire, my nose won't stop running, and I can't even breathe out of my nose. In addition, I feel incredibly drowsy. I've tried every prescription and over the counter allergy medication to no avail. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel as if the physical suffering never ends. It seems that brushing and bathing my puppies exacerbates my symptoms. I've asked G on numerous occasions to help with these tasks, yet he refuses. I would be heartbroken if I had to give up my precious puppies due to allergies. He told me yesterday he won't ever give them up, yet expects me to still groom them daily and suffer with my severe symptoms. He can be such an inconsiderate ass! He usually asks me how I am feeling every day and then asks what he can do to make me feel better, yet wont' do anything I ask him. Another example entails something as simple as changing our air filters, yet he waits until they are so dirty air can't even pass through. I would change them myself, but can't reach and the dust makes me sick for a day. I feel like he almost does it to rub in the fact that I feel terrible. I am so fed up with feeling terrible!
In addition, I finally accepted the fact that my blood pressure is unusually LOW! I always wondered why the doctors checked my BP 2-3 times, yet they never seemed concerned. Well the nurse who took my vitals for life insurance check up seemed alarmed that on two tries my BP was still only 86/58. Anything under 120/90 is considered low! Thus I performed some research and discovered it can either be a sign of good health or a major health concern that can lead to organ failure. I wonder if it has something to do with the reason I am always cold and always get migraines & headaches. Sometimes I feel like I just can't get enough air, even though my lungs feel fine.
I feel as if I am being so ungrateful because I am alive, yet my body is failing me at the age of 24. I probably can't have children due to numerous reproductive problems, have chronic asthma, deal with extremely painful cramps for 2 weeks of each month, have Raynaud's syndrome, in addition to allergies. I wonder why I have to suffer with all these ailments when people such as G are completely healthy? I pray that I will be healed or at least have the strength to continue through the journey of life.
In addition, I finally accepted the fact that my blood pressure is unusually LOW! I always wondered why the doctors checked my BP 2-3 times, yet they never seemed concerned. Well the nurse who took my vitals for life insurance check up seemed alarmed that on two tries my BP was still only 86/58. Anything under 120/90 is considered low! Thus I performed some research and discovered it can either be a sign of good health or a major health concern that can lead to organ failure. I wonder if it has something to do with the reason I am always cold and always get migraines & headaches. Sometimes I feel like I just can't get enough air, even though my lungs feel fine.
I feel as if I am being so ungrateful because I am alive, yet my body is failing me at the age of 24. I probably can't have children due to numerous reproductive problems, have chronic asthma, deal with extremely painful cramps for 2 weeks of each month, have Raynaud's syndrome, in addition to allergies. I wonder why I have to suffer with all these ailments when people such as G are completely healthy? I pray that I will be healed or at least have the strength to continue through the journey of life.
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I hope you feel better soon.
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