Shocking Revelation!

As much as I would love to be pregnant, I had a shocking revelation last night while laying in bed. I felt an extreme sense of dread when I pondered the thought of actually being pregnant with G's child. I still can't see myself bringing a child into the world with such an irresponsible and immature person. Problem: my clock is ticking and I don't see myself leaving G any time soon.
What is more selfish, not wanting to create new life in an unstable situation or wanting to create new life in an unstable situation?

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brian luenemann said…
In my comment on your last post I had written something to the extent of "Can you imagine having and raising a child with G if you are feeling this way?", but felt it didn't feel right to say for some reason and deleted the thought. I'm glad your thinking about it.
7/26/2006 8:21 PM
Searching for the Answers... said…
I appreciate your comments. Please don't feel concerned about offending me with your comments. I am rarely offended and appreicate different perspectives to help me sort through my issues and thoughts.
7/27/2006 8:56 AM
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