Destiny...

Well, as I sit here feeling so alone a song came on I didn't pay much attention to a week ago, but it calls out to me now. My ex told me to listen to this song, but I didn't understand. I'm still not sure I do now. A few days ago he said he wasn't sure he had a reason to drive 500 miles out of his way to see me, while over a month ago he said he would be driving through. I guess he was trying to play another game with me in attempting to get me emotionally involved and possibly beg him to come to see me when I found out he would have to drive so far out of his way. In reality, I called his bluff and told him to do whatever he wants. I said it would be nice to see him, but if he comes he can't have expectations, because seeing him may or may not help me make up my mind...for I know it may only add more confusion to the situation. I am guessing he won't come, which I figured all along. I wasn't worth it before, so why would I be now, or even later. Obviously he seems just as confused as I do, since this song implies he wants to come see me or maybe be with me, but when the pressure is on, he changes his mind. I think he fears what may or may not come to fruition if he sees me. I think holding on to the eternal hope that we can be together seems easier than the possibility of saying goodbye forever. I'm not sure I could ever really say goodbye forever, even if I truly wanted to. I think I am to the point of saying what happens, happens. I place my destiny in God's hands, which is much easier said than done.


Destiny
I lie awake
I've gone to ground
I'm watching porn,
in my hotel dressing gown
And now I, dream of you
but I still believe
there's only enough for one
in this lonely hotel suite.

The journey's long, and I feel so bad.
I'm thinking back to the last day we had
Old moon fades in to the new
Soon I know I'll be back with you
I'm nearly with you, I'm nearly with you.

Chorus:When I'm weak, I draw strength from you
& whe you're lost I know how to change your mood
& when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart, we are eachother's
Destiny

On a clear day, I'll fly home to you
I'm bending time getting back to you
Old moon fades into the new
Soon I knwo I'll be back with you
I'm nearly with you, I'm nearly with you.

Chorus Repeat 2x

I'll fly, I'll fly home, I'll fly home, & I'll fly
Zero 7~ Destiny

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