Please Let Me Go

J I know you sent a message to my old email address in a desperate attempt to contact me. You must know I blocked you from my new addresses and haven't contacted you in months for a reason. I love you, but I have to let go of you, the past, my dreams, and the sweet memories I have of you. Please let me go too, so you can move on and open your heart to someone new. I'm sorry it had to end this way, despite all the plans we made when we were young, in love, and in our teens. We had the best of intentions, but our plans didn't work out. I've moved on and must continue on the path I chose. Please, please let me go...

Comments

Anonymous said…
ohhh...seems like a sad ending for the two of you. but im sure you'll get over him, just like what im doing right now - moving on from a failed relationship with my ex. (sigh) hopw we can be friends. lokks like we have so much in common.
9/05/2005 9:20 PM
Searching for the Answers... said…
I have been trying to get over J for almost 6 years now and it certainly isn't getting any easier. If you find the trick to overcoming your ex please let me know.
9/07/2005 7:42 PM
Anonymous said…
Well, I think you're on the right path when you talk about focusing on your current relationship. What is it about J that's so unforgetable? What's not working in your current relationship that makes going back to J seem so appealing? Have you considered going to therapy to get help dealing with this? (And, I'm not being sarcastic about that AT ALL. I'm going back to my therapist starting next week Thursday!)
I don't think there is one, easy answer. Just like being depressed or happy, it's a bit of a process, not an instant thing. Though, I have to admit, six years is a bit long to carry a torch for someone. There's got to be a lot going on there, more even than you're showing us in this blog. Whatever that "more" is, until you find it and deal with it, you'll never really be over J, I think.
(But, if you find the secret to getting over an ex, post it!)
9/08/2005 9:18 AM
Soul Searching said…
I used to get so totally annoyed when people would tell me that all it would take to get over M was time. Fucking time. Of course, something I couldn't control. I hated that! I wanted to close my eyes and wish the feelings away. I wanted to cry them away. I wanted to isolate myself till they were all just gone. But in the end none of these things ever made me feel better. Now, 6 months later, I don't cry, I don't miss him like I used to, I don't really care as much, and the only thing I can see was that it just took time. Fuck me for giving that as advice when I hated to hear it so much, but in the end it was all that worked. I have been to lucky in my life to not experience anything worse than the loss of my love, and it was a total bitch for me. My only hope for you is that you see brighter days soon :)
9/12/2005 6:08 AM
Searching for the Answers... said…
Network Geek~ There are so many things about J I can't forget. Look back over many of my posts to find all the ironic events that occured between us. I still feel like we were destined to be together. I wish I knew how to move on, but I don't. I've desperately tried everything I know, yet nothing seems to help. He feels the same way too. Why is that after 6 years two people can seem to move past one another? I keep asking myself and wondering why?
9/12/2005 4:02 PM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Written in the Stars

Image
 I realize I can still feel you and after not remembering dreams for almost a decade and having none of you, yet I surprisingly remembered 3 in the past 3 months. I hated that you haunted me in my dreams a decade ago and feel I found a way to block the dreams. Now I welcome the visits since we are separated by space and time that feel lifetimes apart. I In one of my dreams you came to me with Amy Lee and I thought you were together. She sang me the song, "Broken". While on a solo journey of deep inner healing I met a man who deeply triggered me, yet I couldn't stay away. I followed my intuition and met him for a trip. Then during our synchronistic meeting he randomly started singing me the same song and playing it on his guitar while we were tripping together. On the huge screen he was playing a scene with shooting stars like we used to see together and the aurora borealis. My heart skipped a beat when I felt your energy through his song when we were all alone. I asked my
Read more

Twin Flames

Image
 Here I am 22 years after our last meeting feeling the distance between us. I finally realized why I can't seem to forget you no matter how many walls and blocks I built around my heart and mind. We are living two separate lives yet there is this indescribable energy that still remains even through the sound of silence.  After years of silence, I felt an overwhelming energy in which I felt I could explode. I resisted until I became so haunted I had to reach out. I simply sent you this song:  Hello darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains within the sound of silence [Verse 2] In restless dreams, I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone 'Neath the halo of a street lamp I turned my collar to the cold and damp When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light That split the night and touched the sound of silence [Verse 3] And in
Read more

Craziest Year of My Life!!!!

Well, February 2010-February 2011 marks the most eventful period of my entire life. We started w/ a possible ovarian cancer diagnosis, G loosing his job the same week, me undergoing major surgery in March-no cancer, but no help for my chronic pain, G finding a new job in April, giving up on infertility treatments in July, adopting our precious son at the end of July, finding out I was 5 weeks pregnant when our son was 1 week old, finding out I was allergic to dairy, soy, wheat, and eggs the same week, a trip to Hawaii with our 3 week old in August, surgery for our 6 week old for Pyloric Stenosis in September, a bout with Pneumonia over Christmas, to G moving out of state in January for 11 months for his job. With all these changes, everything has worked out more perfectly than we ever could have imagined. We attribute our blessings to God and still trust he has a plan with the new changes to come. These few life changes take me to today. To say the least, I'm feeling a bit overwhe
Read more