Give Me A Sign...
If anyone actually read my blog, I'm sorry I forgot to post the outcome of my last post. Two days after being told we were chosen to adopt a 4 month old baby girl, we were told the parent changed her mind. We felt ok, since it was a complex situation and I guess wasn't meant to be.
I finally received clearance from another infertility specialist to see him w/o getting the MMR vaccine. I actually went to get it and they refused to give it to me saying I was not a good candidate. We have an appointment for a consult with the new doctor in the middle of the month. I also had a surgical procedure completed a few weeks ago that opened both of my fallopian tubes which were supposedly blocked. I don't understand, as I just had surgery in March and was told they were clear. My Dr. said it takes at least one year for them to become blocked, so it doesn't make sense?
On Monday June 28th the adoption agency contacted us to say were were chosen again as a first choice by a birth mom. She wanted us to meet her on Friday July 2nd. She lives about 80 miles from us, so we drove up in the middle of the day. I felt so nervous as we haven't met a birth parent before. After our case worker told us about her I felt calmer and relieved, as it seemed we had a lot in common. Yesterday we met with mom, grandma, sister, and step-grandpa for 2 hours. She told us the most precious words I will never forget: "I want you to be this baby's parents". Typically decisions are not made in match meetings, but we both felt very comfortable. I am super excited, but cautiously optimistic; as she can still change her mind at any time and has to wait until 72 hours after the birth to sign consents. She repeatedly said, "I am not going to change my mind", so I hope that proves a true statement. She plans to be induced on July 29th, so we have a little less than a month to get ready. Did I say I am so excited!!!! My entire family cried when I told them, they are also so excited and know how long we have waited for this day. I still feel in shock. I only slept a few hours last night, although I was/am emotionally exhausted. I have to keep reminding people that this is not 100% yet, but its as close as we could get to knowing in advance. It seems so perfect though because there are no crazy issues with this situation and it is supposedly a perfectly healthy baby. The mom gave us pictures of her ultrasounds and a book of their family history. Again, I feel so honored that she would choose us, I just can't believe it! We were expecting a 2 year wait, since that is the average and we have only been on the active list for 4 months!
I feel like we have so much to do in so little time! In addition we have a 9 day trip to Hawaii planned on August 19th! I guess we will bring our 3 week old along for the journey as we can't cancel or reschedule at this point. The birth family did like that we traveled!
I am a little disappointed in G's behavior after we arrived home yesterday. I thought yesterday would be a very special day for us, but I guess not. We went to dinner at our neighbor's last night and I told him I needed to go home. He said he'd be home in 20-30 minutes, which turned into over 3 hours later after I was already in bed. He then slept on the couch and is still sleeping when I've been up for 5 hours already. He went to our bed as soon as I got up. Maybe it was a misunderstanding, but I would think he would want to talk more about it. I pray this is not a foreshadow of what is to come. He has been helping out a lot lately, especially since my surgery. I also hired a maid to clean the house, which relieves such a burden.
I finally received clearance from another infertility specialist to see him w/o getting the MMR vaccine. I actually went to get it and they refused to give it to me saying I was not a good candidate. We have an appointment for a consult with the new doctor in the middle of the month. I also had a surgical procedure completed a few weeks ago that opened both of my fallopian tubes which were supposedly blocked. I don't understand, as I just had surgery in March and was told they were clear. My Dr. said it takes at least one year for them to become blocked, so it doesn't make sense?
On Monday June 28th the adoption agency contacted us to say were were chosen again as a first choice by a birth mom. She wanted us to meet her on Friday July 2nd. She lives about 80 miles from us, so we drove up in the middle of the day. I felt so nervous as we haven't met a birth parent before. After our case worker told us about her I felt calmer and relieved, as it seemed we had a lot in common. Yesterday we met with mom, grandma, sister, and step-grandpa for 2 hours. She told us the most precious words I will never forget: "I want you to be this baby's parents". Typically decisions are not made in match meetings, but we both felt very comfortable. I am super excited, but cautiously optimistic; as she can still change her mind at any time and has to wait until 72 hours after the birth to sign consents. She repeatedly said, "I am not going to change my mind", so I hope that proves a true statement. She plans to be induced on July 29th, so we have a little less than a month to get ready. Did I say I am so excited!!!! My entire family cried when I told them, they are also so excited and know how long we have waited for this day. I still feel in shock. I only slept a few hours last night, although I was/am emotionally exhausted. I have to keep reminding people that this is not 100% yet, but its as close as we could get to knowing in advance. It seems so perfect though because there are no crazy issues with this situation and it is supposedly a perfectly healthy baby. The mom gave us pictures of her ultrasounds and a book of their family history. Again, I feel so honored that she would choose us, I just can't believe it! We were expecting a 2 year wait, since that is the average and we have only been on the active list for 4 months!
I feel like we have so much to do in so little time! In addition we have a 9 day trip to Hawaii planned on August 19th! I guess we will bring our 3 week old along for the journey as we can't cancel or reschedule at this point. The birth family did like that we traveled!
I am a little disappointed in G's behavior after we arrived home yesterday. I thought yesterday would be a very special day for us, but I guess not. We went to dinner at our neighbor's last night and I told him I needed to go home. He said he'd be home in 20-30 minutes, which turned into over 3 hours later after I was already in bed. He then slept on the couch and is still sleeping when I've been up for 5 hours already. He went to our bed as soon as I got up. Maybe it was a misunderstanding, but I would think he would want to talk more about it. I pray this is not a foreshadow of what is to come. He has been helping out a lot lately, especially since my surgery. I also hired a maid to clean the house, which relieves such a burden.
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