Hindsight

As our trip to CA draws closer each day, I can't help but wonder why things can't be different between G, J, and I? In a sense, I wish J and I never had a serious relationship, but were just serious friends. I hate that we will be so close to him, yet can't even say "hi". I'm sure he knows the best beaches, could show us around, and would even let us meet his dolphins. Unfortunately, I had to ruin it by falling in love with him. Although, in hindsight, I don't think we would have been such great friends if we didn't fall in love.

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brian luenemann said…
When you are on your way home after your time in CA, will you feel regret for not taking the opportunity to contact J? I'm sure you have a dozen reasons why you shouldn't, but will you still regret it? Just curious.
5/25/2007 1:43 AM
Searching for the Answers... said…
I guess we will wait and see...and hope I have time to write a post.
6/11/2007 5:10 PM
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