The Bearable, Unbearable...

Only a few more days until my big surgery. I'm not able to think about it due the the immeasurable pain I've been in the last few days. I can't take ANY medication before my surgery and just started my period yesterday. In over a decade I have never made it through my period without heavy medications and now I have nothing! Even with my regular medications, the pain is unbearable. It seems that the cramps the week before I started this time were the same intensity as a normal period, and the first three days I usually can't even get out of bed. Last night I went to bed early in tears with a massive migraine and so much abdominal pain. I feel as if someone has a mixer on high, with knives attached and is ripping apart my insides, not to mention it feels like some one kicked me 15 times in my lower back. I am essentially living breath to breath right now. I can't wait until I can wake up from my surgery heavily medicated so I don't feel the pain anymore. The only bearable part is knowing the surgery may help alleviate the pain I've been dealing with for over half my life. I sure hope it is worth the pain in the end. God help me!

Comments

Anonymous said…
I'll be praying for you.
I hope the pain is gone, or at least more managable, after your surgery.
7/16/2007 8:50 PM
brian luenemann said…
Hope it gets better soon. Better living through chemistry.
7/18/2007 12:48 AM
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