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In no specific order; my resolutions for now... Learn HTML by DECEMBER Keep in FREQUENT contact with family and friends ie: a minimum of weekly w/ mom & sister and monthly or bi monthly with grandparents, dad, friends, & brother. Read the bible DAILY Improve my diet DAILY by: taking daily multi-vitamin, eating at least 2 meals per day, and one serving of fruit and vegetables. Complete our yard projects by APRIL- will definitely require a miracle! Learn how to proficiently utilize all functions on my new serger Go on a date at least ONE TIME PER MONTH Have my house cleaned and in order by APRIL, when both of our families come to visit. Refrain from contacting J and pondering over the past ONE DAY AT A TIME Live each day to the fullest with a positive attitude Consider enrolling in a Master's program for SPRING 2007; preferably online or in the evenings Begin exercising (yeah, a classic!) at least ONCE per WEEK starting when I get the chance (revision of resolution required t...

I feel so bewildered about a dream I had last night. I know dreams don't necessarily foretell the past or present, but I still can't shake the disturbing feelings arising from my dream. My dream arose from somewhere within my subconscious, thus I can't determine why? I haven't been thinking of J at all lately. I dreamed that J and I were supposed to be getting married to different people, but somehow ended up at the same wedding. I was standing before him at the altar completely bewildered, but somewhat hopeful. We then began whispering to each other about our lives and the different paths we took since the last time we met. His face was all tattooed and evidently he was participating in tagging (defacement of public property) and gang activity. He said he cheated on me the entire time we were together and said he wanted to talk to me alone. I was horrified, shocked and completely bewildered. Several hours later I still don't know what to think? Maybe subconsciously...

Excuse: I haven't posted for quite some time. For some reason I don't feel inspired to write about anything lately. I've been reading some blogs, which have such crazy, unbelievable stories. I think, "gosh, my life seems quite boring at the moment, what could I possibly write about?" Job: I started seeing clients at my new job lately, and so far everything is wonderful! I love my new job, especially having most if not all of Thursdays and Fridays off! I can set my own schedule so I can go on vacation without even taking unpaid time off work. New Year: I have been pondering over changes I would like to make during the new year, but don't want my thoughts written, because then I will feel internal pressure to actually work towards my "resolutions". I don't think I am ready to commit to a resolution, because knowing myself, I will undoubtedly fail. I may post my "resolutions" at a date yet to be determined. Puppies: Oh, how I love my ...

I finally returned home from vacation. I am glad to be home, but sad I won't see my family for at least another 4-6 months. Having time to myself for two weeks without concerns regarding work allowed me to ponder over numerous thoughts racing through my subconscious mind. I'm still experiencing difficulties with G. We fought the first two days of our vacation and decided to just drop our issues and pretend they didn't exist. Being the perfectionist I am, I can't stand to ignore problems, especially in my relationships. Ignoring problems only allows them to continue to fester until the relationship becomes seriously infected. I would much rather deal with the issues at hand when they arise, but G on the other hand would rather pretend to ignore them for as long as possible. The scenario above explains why our relationship became so abusive initially; because we didn't ever work on problems until they exploded with full force. On our last day of vacation we began fi...